letter

October 13 , 2007

My Darling Love , Crystal

I 've had many a sleepless night thinking how I can fully , adequately express the feelings of my heart . I wanted to tell you this in person but I am afraid I will leave something out and fail to tell you everything I want to say . With this letter , I will try -- so heed my words and keep an open mind

If I will sound uncharacteristically cheesy , it 's because I want to pour my heart out like I have never before in my

whole life . I just hope I will not fail miserably . forgive my poor effort and accept this simple phrase that encapsulates what I feel right now : I love you and I want you back

I realize that I may not have shown how much I truly love you , how acute this feeling you 've inflicted on me is . But I want you to know that I feel love with every fiber of my being and it shakes me to the core . I 'm sorry if I took your love for granted . If I wasn 't able to make you feel it -- love -- I truly am sorry and I hope you forgive me

I concede that it 's probably my fault perhaps I 'm flawed that way . I sometimes struggle to find the words and actions to express how much I love you and how much you really mean to me . But change is only possible through realization and I am thankful that you made me realize my shortcomings and where I should improve . You made me realize I want to be a better person -- for you

I want you to know that I am working to improve myself . I will treat you like the queen that you 've always been not just because that 's what you want , but most importantly , that is how I feel . Translating my feelings to action is what I am fully resolved to do . The future holds so much promise for us , my love . I hope I 'm not too late . Give me a chance to show you love you 've never felt before , life you 've never lived before

They say people never really realize what they have until it 's gone Being apart from you made me realize how life is truly empty without you by my side . No other person has ever made feel this way . You make made feel -- you make made me feel alive . You give my life reason . Somehow the world is different -- with you , life is somehow less dreary , less of a struggle . With you life is beautiful . Because of you , my life has meaning

I am in love and it 's a beautiful thing . I hope -- nay , I know -- in your heart of hearts , you know we can make this work . Days spent with you are the happiest days of my life and I am sure...