Poem

Sacrament Refused

Am I to take your Sacrament

to satisfy my discontent

for love who joins with you

for me , no identity

with me no fertility

so you hold the one that matters

you in heart , I have enshrined

forgiveness , now I cannot find

nor will I ask of you

Surmise the night , no , much too loud

my soul aches silent , proud

and strong was love

in day , bound to mask

til darkness , I beg , ends doubtless task

after task , alone , without

my love

, life is blameless taunt

for your death , my life it haunts

encircles me with grief

Thoughts I cannot collect

confusion and doubt , expect

beyond love , because of loss

a much desired confession

leads to sorrow , rejection

open to join love , with you

my love now in spirit adrift

, yet , nothing shifts

to make room for pain

Over thought , under-slept

in rain I have crept

in darkness to the graves

only to lay with tombs

death , for me , will come soon

six feet above love , I wait

for life holds no service

for mine has lost it 's purpose

come death , come

Sickness takes me , I 'm sure

for mine there is no cure

love-sick has no friend , no foe

I will not accept life energy

from my love , I am not free

the two entwined , eternity

no , keep the sacrament

and leave me to discontent

for I abandon the soul...