Personal experience

Worth the Wait

Love Comes When You Least Expect It

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Two months ago , in my bedroom , I felt a strange feeling of loneliness by which I just couldn 't specify . It had been long since I last felt this way . It seemed like a mixture of two emotions lurking deep in my veins - a raging smile on my face , yet hard to determine . I could state it as a sign of pleasure and of happiness . I felt like I was floating in the shallow waters , just looking up in the sky

. Then I realized , I just really miss him

In the same room , there were these nights before when my tears started to run like there was no room to see . My eyes were swollen in perfect agony . I used to think that life was not fair to me . It seemed everyone had a love just for them , and I was the other hand who left behind all alone . I treated other people as that who were selfish . I reached the peak where I felt that I was all alone . Nobody was there for me . I was left in an empty room -- an empty space . It seemed like a place where nobody could see me -- and I see no one too . But today , I believe that those feeling of misery were only a manifestation of me , being single Unlike the other girls in town , I was different . I could reminisce the time when I was the only one left single in our group

A friend of mine gave me an advice before , she said , Love is like butterfly , the more you chase it , the more it eludes you . But if you just let it fly , it will come to you when you least expect it ' --quite a quote which I often read in Shakespeare 's works . In that certain moment , I was like Yeah right ! That is beyond my expectation , Hello Look at me , I 'm still single , and I 'm happy about that ' Something was pushing me not to tell her my desires - to love , and be loved in return Yes . I want to feel LOVE

When I look back at that certain scenario , I admit that I did lied to her and tried to hide my pride that I honestly expected to have a boyfriend . Extremely ! You cannot imagine how much I dream of being hugged and kissed and loved by somebody whom I could also call my own I was so desperate every time my friends ask me about my status - my views on relationships but gradually I get used to it . Truly I don 't even care anymore . I instilled the idea deep within me that I don 't need anybody to be me . Not even a boyfriend ' With that , I thought I would be a single forever . The skepticism was a roller coaster ride in my fantasies

But do not take me as that which is a man-hater - because I...